Loves: Crystals, children, foraging, traveling, raw cacao, fungi, singing, ceremonies, flowers
Passionate about: Freebirthing, lotus birth, vibrational medicine, herbs, womb healing
My name is Emma and I’m 30 years old. I was born in a little town on the Eastern boarder of Finland, a 4-hour drive from the Polar circle. In my 20’s I traveled the world extensively in search of something bigger, something that would answer the questions I always had inside of me. Who am I? Why doesn’t my perception of reality seem to be at all the same as of the people around me? What is it that we are all here for? What is missing, why is there a void inside of me? Why do I feel so lonely even when I’m surrounded with people? I lived in Helsinki, the capital city of Finland, for almost 7 years, studying Educational Sciences and Political Science in University of Helsinki. I was working in the field of psychological assessment and later as a kindergarten teacher. The life that I lead managed to finally burn me out to the point of complete surrender. This is when I finally returned to my roots – moved back home up North to my hometown and rediscovered my lost connection with Mother Earth, and through it most importantly: to myself. I started to go deeper into my yogic practice, started meditating and truly stepped onto the path of healing and self-realization – but most importantly the healing of the Womb.
In spring 2015 I participated in shamanic ceremonies that resulted in a deep self-realization, unity consciousness and God-experience. In these ceremonies I also got in touch with my abilities to work with energies, vibrational level of reality, emotional blockages and the spirit world. The next summer I met my husband and entering this sacred relationship kindled a very powerful and profound awakening, which was a starting point to an intense period of emotional, mental and physical purification in both of us.
Soon after we met I left for India for the first time, and this journey was one of absolute transformation and deep healing. I continued my learning path with energy healing, started to connect with crystals and went through a very intense physical purification process. Past years I have been learning to ground all these energies here into this physical world and passionately continued on the path into the heart, where all the wisdom really lies. After all, my search was over. I had found everything inside of myself.
The path of awakening has been very rapid for me and has made me work through my mind-based conditionings and fears very fast. I have had beautiful teachers on the way who have shared their experience and wisdom with me, but most of the teachings come to me internally. The shift from the very narrow Western mind-based materialistic view of reality to heart-based unity consciousness and self-realization has been so rapid and absolute that I thank every single force in this multiverse, not the least my husband, for helping it all integrate so fast and so deeply. This process is of course on-going, as is the awakening of humanity and the collective shift into the unity-consciousness.
In the shamanic ceremonies I partook in 2015, I met my daughter Taiga in spirit. I knew I was a mother, before I had even met my husband. And then I met him, two months later. He immediately recognized her as his daughter too, and we gave her permission to join us here on the Earth-side as soon as she wished to do so. She waited until we came home from India, where my husband had joined me later in the fall, and barely a week went by before I was pregnant with her. It was December 25th 2015, the first full moon on Christmas day since 1977 when our love opened a gateway between dimensions, through which she joined us here in the physical human existence, and started to grow her Avatar body in my womb.
I was guided closely by Taiga and my higher self throughout the pregnancy and followed this internal guidance without hesitation. I chose not to have doctor’s check-ups throughout the whole pregnancy, no ultrasounds, no vaginal exams, no tests, no monitoring, measuring – basically no Western medicine. I knew this was the right way for me to do it, and I am forever grateful for that determination and fierce mama-strength I had following my instincts. Following my daughter’s wishes, we moved up North to my hometown when I was 8 months pregnant, to give birth to her in my mother’s riverside house in the forest. My mother has been one of the most important supporters of this whole journey, and I want to thank her for first of all giving me life and teaching me to trust my intuition, and second of all for having faith in my ability to give birth and for facilitating it all to take place in such a safe and beautiful environment.
I meditated, spent lots and lots of time in the nature, especially in the forest throughout the pregnancy. I made art, turned inside and let myself rest a lot. The pregnancy was extremely healing and sacred time for me – it brought up a lot of emotions and helped me get in touch with shadow aspects of myself. I knew exactly what I was doing, but it was still an internal struggle to let go of those conditionings and fears around pregnancy and childbirth that I still carried in my body. I let myself fully open up to all the emotions, determined to uncover and let go of any and every fear-based conditioning, belief system and emotional blockage that I possibly could let go of in that 9 months that I had before giving birth. I did a very good job and managed to get to a situation where my body could give birth naturally, but I still had some emotional blockages in my lower back that resulted in intense labor pain and a long waiting for the placenta. Nevertheless, the birth of my daughter was absolutely sacred, perfect and relatively easy. My gorgeous husband was the one to see her first, to catch her and to hand her to me after she was born, and I am forever grateful for his courage and assistance with helping me through this journey.
I feel like I let go of so much when I gave birth to her – when a child slides through the birthing canal, the portal between the worlds, it is the most intense opening and cleansing you could imagine. When you go through it consciously and being able to feel the emotions and sensations as they unravel from your body, this will heal you in an indescribable way. The woman becomes the doorway between life and death. Giving birth naturally also resulted in a very quick recovery physically, as there were no physical injuries related to this childbirth at all. The body is incredible, the womb and the yoni know exactly how to deliver new life into existence if we know how to step out of their way.
I believe that childbirth is inherently safe and painless – once we understand the true nature of the body and spirit.
Taiga, my soul sister, was born 11:00 AM September 21st 2016 in my hometown Sotkamo. There were 15 swans in the river outside of the house until she was born, that’s when they migrated to the South for the winter. Taiga is lotus born, it means that she was not cut from her placenta but instead the umbilical cord was left to dry and drop away in its own time. We washed the placenta, dried it and covered it with salt, herbs and rose petals and placed it in a little basket. On the 5th day of her life she decided to let go of her umbilical cord and the connection to her first mother – the sacred placenta. We followed this ancient tradition of Lotus Birth because we learned to understand how the cutting of the umbilical cord, often even before it has pumped all the blood into the newborn baby, is one of the greatest traumas we all carry and how this trauma affects our well-being throughout the life of the human being. We wanted for our daughter to be able to start her life without a birth trauma and without the umbilical trauma that most people on this planet still carry. In yogic terms, we wanted for her to be born in perfect Ahimsa – perfect non-violence. It is time to change this reality we live in, and the healing starts at birth.
It is with great joy and honor that I now embark this journey of assisting the humanity in healing. Healing the birth trauma, healing the umbilical trauma and remembering the sacred nature of pregnancy and birth. I am here to remind women all around the world of their ability to carry their babies and give birth naturally, and to give birth in a way that will give their children a possibility to start their lives without the initial traumas that most of us had to suffer of for so long. I am here to remind all women of the sacred wisdom of the Womb and the power of the Yoni.
If you don’t have a Womb or a Yoni, you are also very welcome to contact me! I am more than happy to work with men who resonate with my energy. Sometimes the feminine energy is exactly what is needed for the masculine polarity to start blooming and healing. Sometimes a man can find it difficult to address certain aspects of the self with another man – the wounded inner child or matters of sexuality, fatherhood etc. Also the role of the father in the birth of a child is often overlooked, and I would love to be there to assist the conscious fathers to be there for the mother and to embrace their role in the childbirth as well. I want for you to know how important you are! I welcome my brothers to join me on this healing path and am here to assist you too.